In the space of 365 days, she has gone from this:
The first year of your child's life is an wonderful thing. They develop from being a competely helpless little scrap, totally dependent on you for everything, to the beginnings of an independent little person. I once read that from the moment we give birth to them, our children are inching further and further away from us, day by day, as they tread the rocky road to independence. When I first read that, I found it unbearably sad, as if every second that passed I was losing a tiny bit more of my little girl. But I view it differently now. Our children rely on us to teach them and nurture them and that growing independence is something to be proud of. I look at her now and see that somehow I have enabled her to develop into the fiesty, bright little girl that she is becoming.
I'm sure I've gone on about it many times, but this last year has been one of the most fulfilling and precious years of my life so far. I have changed and grown almost as much as Freyja herself, as Adrian and I have muddled our way through our first year of parenthood. There have been difficult times - many, in fact, - but these are far outweighed by the special moments when being a parent feels like the most rewarding and important thing you can do. I feel that my life has meaning now in a way that I didn't always feel before. The way I feel about Freyja has amazed me - I don't think you can really explain to anyone else but another mother (parent?) the way that you feel about your child as words don't really convey that overwhelming ache of love that they can arouse in you at the most unexpected moments.
I love being a mother but I know that this time of my life is going to pass in a flash (and that I won't always love every moment of being a mother!) so I will treasure the memories of the last year, will try not to feel too sad that she is growing up so fast and will look forward to those memories waiting to made over the next year.
Although, I must say that now that she has turned one, I've suddenly started feeling that little twinge of broodiness again...